Pain in the ass

DON’T BE A PAIN IN THE ASS. You say “it’s fine” when it comes to your desires because the other person wants something different, so you settle. You blame yourself for damn near everything. For choosing the wrong people after they’ve hurt you like somehow, you could have predicted their betrayals, lies and deceit. You blame yourself when someone doesn’t understand you, like somehow you have not given enough of yourself to them. You spill your coffee, say the wrong thing, scream, think the wrong thought and sin.

It’s all your fault.

You give too many chances, then snap back at yourself with a “I should have known better.” Like somehow someone else’s indiscretions were all your fault.  Is it contentment? Is it insecurity? Is it stand still, look pretty? Is it you don’t know any better? Is it because you have no idea what you’re doing in life? Is it don’t be a pain in the ass?

Be a pain in the ass. Nobody knows what they’re doing in life, really truly. We’re all just walking aimlessly around in circles trying to put all the pieces together to make sense of whatever world we live in. Shout your desires. Don’t you dare settle. Stop the self-sabotage, now you know better. Do the therapy, lift the heavy shit to loud music, go for that run to exhale yourself blame. Give grace, don’t give, chances. Remove “it’s fine” from your vocabulary.

Be a pain in the ass

and shatter your ceiling.